Enough of the emotional shit.

Okay, time to get back to reality. No more fantasizing on relationship anymore, she's not going to like me and i'm bound to be forever alone.

I'm gonna

1) Jog every morning during my 3 weeks of holidays.
2) Eat subway everyday if possible.
3) Go to the gym and workout.
4) Swim and get tanned.
5) Go out to town often.
6) Get really drunk on one of those days to getaway from reality for a day.

Failure

I'm nerd, introvert, boor, childish, poor, ugly, weak, short, pathetic, crazy, worthless.


I guess i could already see that coming already, you'll never like me. 

No longer there.

The feel is no longer there, it's been numbed by all those workload, the mountain heap of workload. Yeah, living in Singapore is stress or should i just say, being an asian is really a tough thing. Sometimes i wondered if i'm living in Hell or not, it's really hell during the day. The weather is literally like hell, speaking of which i sidetracked myself lol. Oh well, hmm that title pretty much sums up everything. No longer there, yeah got it?

Fade

It's really fading. Real fast, real soon. 


I'm getting tired. Projects, homework, test, exams, plans, friends, families, relatives. 

I don't know if you will regret when i leave but.. one thing for sure is that you'll be losing someone who really really really likes you a lot. Someone who is willing to change your life, someone who will be committed to stay in your heart, someone whom you're proud to call yours. 

Time

I do not have time anymore, i'll just ask her one last time, asking her out one last time. That'll be final, i just don't want to wait there like an idiot. Both of our hearts are broken but it surely takes two efforts to mend it back into one. One beating heart, one relationship.

I'm not like the other guys, i won't play with your feelings. You can have my words for that. 

Verge

Yeah, i do read your blog and i pretended that i do not care about it. Actually i do, taking so many pictures with another guy, getting so intimate and close to that guy just makes me cringe inside. Really i had a very hard time trying to read your blog. I really hope that you'll give me an answer, please don't leave me hanging.

I'm already on the verge of giving up, please stop torturing me. 

Stay with me.

Please.