Saturday 18 May 2013

A burden off my chest.

Yeah, i confessed to her my feelings today, i've got that tad bit of feelings for her and i can't seems to sleep well if i don't say it out. I know it's a little rush for me to confess my feelings for you but i don't want history to repeat itself, there's a girl i had harbor 2 years of feelings for her. I liked her a lot and every time i tried to confess to her, i just can't do it. I kept on procrastinating and when i finally picked up the courage to tell her that i like her, she already had someone. The feelings i have for Charmaine is just a tad bit, i hope i could just forget it. I tried to push her off, i tried to be narcissistic and egoistic just to make her think that i am a jerk and make her stop texting me. But she didn't, i thought she have feelings for me, i guess i'm wrong. Actually i don't know if i have the feeling ( LOVE ) for her or not. When i saw guys texting her, i cringed inside. When she didn't reply me or she replied with just a word, i feel that i'm not important. I've just got that hot and cold impression from her, sometimes i thought she had interest in me, sometimes i don't. I think she's scared of me now, being so rash and confessing to her even though we met a few times. The first time we met, i found her very nice and easy-going but i tried not to cross the line. She's that type of girl who looks good without makeup & don't have that ahlian personality. I guess i'm not really good at controlling my emotions, i get attached to people too easily. I apologies if i shocked you or something i just.. can't help it. 

I really hope that she has some feelings for me, or just shove me off and don't text/meet me. With that much said, i think i had developed a relationship between this blog and myself. I can easily type all of my feelings here but i just can't type it out and send it to her. 

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